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A Slip…

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I’m not proud to admit this by any means, but I had a slip…

Before I was pregnant I was a smoker, it was my coping mechanism for a lot of stress and anxiety in my life. I’ve been around smokers all my life; many of my family members are currently smokers, so for me it was a normalcy. But it’s not an excuse by any means and I chose to start smoking to alleviate the stresses in my life at a young age. Not healthy by any means I admit and a huge regret that I wish I had never started.

When I found out I was pregnant with Valeria, I stopped cold turkey, no hesitation, no questions. My little peanut was more important than having a cigarette to calm my nerves. I did extremely well, I had quit for over a year.

Then I started having anxiety, stress and all those old emotions came flooding back for various reasons. My first thought was smoking, but only socially. I discussed it with my husband, he’d never had an issue with my habit before and though he was hesitant, he said okay. I should have listened to him and not started again. Because socially than became one a day, then two and so on. Needless to say, I was smoking like a fiend and getting absolutely nothing out of it.

It didn’t solve anything and now I’m going through my detox of quitting yet again. This time, I’m determined to quit for good. I need to, I can’t keep doing this and the Nutritionist highly suggested it as well. How am I to change my life and be healthy if I’m doing something repeatedly to harm myself?

Wish me luck.

Ciao from a not so proud mama

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10 thoughts on “A Slip…”

  1. Don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s not like it’s crack. Obviously, it’s bad for you but we all have our addictions that we use to cope with life. Don’t think you have to do it alone either, there’s patches, gum, therapy and other resources. Remember to ask for help. You’ll figure it out. I’m rooting for you ❤️

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    1. Thank you so much Cheila, I really appreciate the kind words and support and your right, there are different resources I can utilize and my husband is fully on board

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  2. I’m so impressed that you are recognizing your slip and saying it out loud. Don’t be too hard on yourself. We all make mistakes. Thank you for sharing and being so open.

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  3. This must have been tough to admit and post about, but you are brave in doing so and recognizing the change you need to make. My dad smokes and did a lot as I was growing up and it did affect me a lot, so I made sure whoever I marry isn’t a smoker. Your post brought some memories back, but I am rooting for you in your journey to quit! So much love and light! 💕☀️💕

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    1. It was difficult to post and I kept hemming and hawing about even posting it, but I thought if I post it I’ll be more accountable and push me to be completely successful this time. I can understand the memories from your childhood, sorry this post triggered those for you. I do really appreciate your kind words and support on the ❤

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  4. 🤗 when you get to “perfect” please share it with the class 🤗 What I mean by that is no one is perfect, we all make choices that we regret. You will get through this just like you did when you got pregnant you quit so you know you are more than capable of doing it. 🙂

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