Tag: smoking

I’m not proud to admit this by any means, but I had a slip…

Before I was pregnant I was a smoker, it was my coping mechanism for a lot of stress and anxiety in my life. I’ve been around smokers all my life; many of my family members are currently smokers, so for me it was a normalcy. But it’s not an excuse by any means and I chose to start smoking to alleviate the stresses in my life at a young age. Not healthy by any means I admit and a huge regret that I wish I had never started.

When I found out I was pregnant with Valeria, I stopped cold turkey, no hesitation, no questions. My little peanut was more important than having a cigarette to calm my nerves. I did extremely well, I had quit for over a year.

Then I started having anxiety, stress and all those old emotions came flooding back for various reasons. My first thought was smoking, but only socially. I discussed it with my husband, he’d never had an issue with my habit before and though he was hesitant, he said okay. I should have listened to him and not started again. Because socially than became one a day, then two and so on. Needless to say, I was smoking like a fiend and getting absolutely nothing out of it.

It didn’t solve anything and now I’m going through my detox of quitting yet again. This time, I’m determined to quit for good. I need to, I can’t keep doing this and the Nutritionist highly suggested it as well. How am I to change my life and be healthy if I’m doing something repeatedly to harm myself?

Wish me luck.

Ciao from a not so proud mama